A girl to call my own
>> Wednesday, March 15, 2006
EG, if you've just read the title; unlock your jaw and smile. I don't mean I'm going to actually own her. I have come the realization that I want a girl who I can say, "That's the one, that's mine." Every bit as much as she has the right to say the same about me. But I don't want it to be meaningless. I want it to be amazing. I want to look at a picture of her and think to myself, I miss her...I miss her a lot. And for sheer longing and desire to be near her again reach out and touch her cheek.
I want to miss someone when I go to bed not having seen them. I'm beginning to feel that way about something and someone. The something is if I haven't read my scriptures, I miss them; I miss how I feel when I haven't done it that day. I love that. The someone is a tricky story; she's perfect, and I'd love to have her, the problem is that someone else already figured out that little secret. He purposed and then for some completely daft reason which I have yet to fathom he backed out. I don't get it. But I wish I could take his place, come back crying and say I'm sorry and have her take me back. Gosh I'm dreaming of ways to get the girl to take me back and I haven't yet figured how to get her to take me in the first place.
I think deep down, I'm a romantic...which makes life horribly disappointing.
-C
2 comments:
Hmm. I'm glad you're coming back to our ward. Who is this girl? I know how to win her over. Go beat up this ex-fiancee. Maybe in a public place, like a restaurant or funeral home.
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This may come off sounding wrong, but I am very very glad I didn't have a blog when I was in your position, which I was, for a long long time.
Your blog is like reading letters from my past.
And if you go for the beating method espoused by the smurf, may I recommend doing it one-handed with a bouquet in the other hand?
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